Friday, October 23, 2009

Better?

I've felt better this week than I have in a long, long time -- lighter, happier, more optimistic, quick to laugh -- which is a wonderful thing.

However, I'm scared.   

This was the fourth week in my birth control pill pack, meaning seven days of placebo pills.  A week without additional hormones in my system.  What if this good mood is the result of a week off the new birth control pills, and not things getting back to normal as life levels out?  What if the the weepy, moody, low-libidoed me comes back once I start taking the active pills again?  This albeit briefly new and improved me has been SUCH a relief from the suckitude of the last little while that I'm heart broken at the thought of losing me.

I said I'd give these pills another month, and I will.  But my doctor's on speed-dial, so if the awful me returns on Monday, I'll be making an appointment as fast as my finger can hit the "send" button.

I don't want to lose myself to the suck.  *sigh* Pin It

3 comments:

  1. if you dont mind my asking, what are you taking?

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  2. My wife goes through the hormonal mess that is birth control pills. It's trial and error until you find a kind that works for you. She's been on so many different types over the years.

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  3. I hear ya dude. I've been struggling with changing anti-depressants. I've began to wonder if it's not really depression or the IUD that's causing my mood swings. There's just so many variables....

    I hope you're out of the suck soon. It's no place to be. But! I'm there with you, so let's both get out, m'kay?

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