This past week was something of a dog's breakfast. Food intake wasn't bad: I stuck to my snacks and allowed myself a sweet treat per your suggestions next week. Water was good all week at close to 84oz every day (except for the weekend, of course). Exercise wasn't GREAT, but wasn't as bad as expected (four walks). We had decided to try to stick to as normal as possible bed/waking times on the weekend in an effort to curtail my difficulty getting to sleep on Sunday nights; we didn't do *too* badly, but I'm still sleeping like crap.
Last week I wrote that I was struggling. Two days later, I wrote a post as part of Girl Talk Thursday about my favourite body part(s), and was quite proud of myself for being able to find positive attributes all the way up my body. Unfortunately, the next day wasn't as good.
I was all over the map, feeling overwhelmingly insecure and just... not good enough. I was just not in a good head space. Then I talked to my mom on the phone and heard about some difficulties Taylor is having with Justin, and a bunch of shit that has been hashed and rehashed between poor Chebbar and I reared its ugly head. Again. We had a(nother) good conversation about the things that have been floating around my head that I've been... leery? afraid? to say, and all in all I feel better.
Unfortunately, physically I'm not doing so hot. Again, again. *eye roll* I'm assuming it's this so-called ovarian cyst acting up, but I'm in pain and have been since Saturday. I have a doctor's appointment on Thursday, and I'm going back and forth between toughing it out until then (so she can "see" it at its worst), and hitting the walk-in clinic after work for anti-inflammatories/pain killers so I can hopefully get some relief before subjecting myself to being poked and prodded. I do have an ultrasound scheduled, but it's not until April 16th. Only 88 more days to go! Wheeeee! Not.
Update
I wrote this yesterday morning. Since then, the pain increased, including a new pain in my right side (more towards my back, but too high to be kidney pain, apparently). I was at work for half an hour before packing everything up and hitting the highway for my half hour commute home, after which I went to the walk-in clinic. This doctor also suspects a cyst (so, that's (inadvertently) my THIRD opinion now... lol); he gave me prescriptions for an anti-inflammatory and a pain killer. He also urged me to ask my doctor to see if she can get me an ultrasound in another city that may have a shorter wait time: he felt that three months is too long to wait, too. He ended by saying that he doesn't think it's anything "ominous," so I feel marginally better on that front. This is still scaring the hell out of me, though.
Update
I wrote this yesterday morning. Since then, the pain increased, including a new pain in my right side (more towards my back, but too high to be kidney pain, apparently). I was at work for half an hour before packing everything up and hitting the highway for my half hour commute home, after which I went to the walk-in clinic. This doctor also suspects a cyst (so, that's (inadvertently) my THIRD opinion now... lol); he gave me prescriptions for an anti-inflammatory and a pain killer. He also urged me to ask my doctor to see if she can get me an ultrasound in another city that may have a shorter wait time: he felt that three months is too long to wait, too. He ended by saying that he doesn't think it's anything "ominous," so I feel marginally better on that front. This is still scaring the hell out of me, though.
Sorry about the rough week you are having. I hope you start to feel better and can figure out what's causing it. Try to hang in there!
ReplyDeleteCyst action, no fun :( Sorry about the up and down week. Sounds like you and I are on the same ride. One second I'm up then the next down, back and forth. It sucks....But each day is new. Good luck on getting the ultrasound
ReplyDeleteI hope you find some sort of resolution to your health problems soon. Making the right choices to promote weight loss is hard enough under even the best of circumstances ... and the pain and stress of an illness is certainly not the best of circumstances!
ReplyDeleteI wish you the best of luck finding someone who is able to accommodate your health care needs in a more appropriate time line. Hang in there!
cysts are horrible, especially when they rupture. I found out I was pregger with Mira b/c I had a cyst rupture and was in blinding pain.
ReplyDeleteI hope they can move up your ultrasound
Sorry to hear that youa re in pain.I am so glad you went to the doctor. Hopefully you can get an ultrasound earlier.
ReplyDeleteI like the way you write because it is so honest. I hope a cyst is just a cyst, by any other name, and that somehow an alien points its magic finger at yours and melts it for you.
ReplyDeleteNice to e-meet you! Hasn't the weather been great for walking these past few days? I sometimes feel guilty going for a walk instead of doing something more vigorous, but with so few sunny days this time of year I'll take all the vitamin D I can get!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry that you aren't feeling well. I don't know anything about cysts, but they sound painful. Relax and don't worry about getting in the exercise.
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