Last week was another good week. I found myself using the word "only" while looking at my exercise for last week (I "only" got in three workouts (five if you count all the walking we did Saturday and Sunday)) - I'm trying (again) to change the way I think/look at things, so I got three workouts in last week! Yay, me! :D hehe I also did well with my eating/tracking.
I was finding myself feeling a little... cramped, I guess? Like I haven't been doing enough: I really enjoy walking with Chebbar after work, but it's almost as if because I find it enjoyable, my brain doesn't want to recognize it as exercise (pretty awful when an activity has to be unpleasant for you to consider it a workout, no?). After a demoralizing session of trying on pants that left me in tears and a frank discussion about my body image, I decided that I'm going to get back to my weights after we walk three days a week, and I reserve the right to kick Chebbar off the TV when I get home from work if I want to do Wii Fit/Just Dance/Zumba/Tae Bo. Yesterday he didn't feel like walking (he slept like crap Sunday night), but I didn't let that stop me: I hopped on the elliptical, followed it up with weights, and felt really GOOD when I was done. :)
Work isn't stressing me out quite as much as it was. After speaking up for myself and letting the higher-ups know that our current project was stressing me out and outlining my abilities and limitations, I'm starting to feel like I have a handle on stuff. I'm still stopping every hour to stretch and breathe. I also bought a couple of stress-relieving aromatherapy oils - might just be a placebo effect, but hey: whatever works, right?
The dentist appointment on Friday ended up being a surprise! filling replacement: NO ROOT CANAL! :D I guess I had a small cavity beside the current filling, so they replaced the old metal filling and I've had no further pain (thank Ceiling Cat). He also assured me that, if a root canal was necessary, it almost always involves throbbing pain that doesn't go away, not the sharp, shooting, fleeting pain I was experiencing. Good to know. I've been SO GOOD at making sure I floss and brush before bed, too.
I'm in the process of working on some stuff. On ME. I really want (need) to improve my self-esteem and confidence (hence my request for happy songs on Saturday: once I have my self-esteem playlist fine-tuned, I'll post it). I really want (need) to work on my body image (issues). And I really want (need) to figure out how to forgive a couple of people for ME so I can let go of the lingering hurt and anger. That last one? Believe it or not, that's probably going to be the toughest one - I have ideas of how to pursue the other goals (or at least where to look for resources), but I'm clueless when it comes to forgiving someone who has hurt me: I've never been in the position where the hurt and anger have been so deep that I just wasn't capable of letting go and moving on. That being said, if anyone has any tips or resources you could share, I would greatly appreciate it.
ETA: Oh! I don't know how I forgot this (can we say selective amnesia?)! My first weigh-in/measuring/"progress check up" since getting back on the horse is this Friday. I'm a little excited, but that is overshadowed by nervousness and fear that it's going to be bad news... :-s
ETA: Oh! I don't know how I forgot this (can we say selective amnesia?)! My first weigh-in/measuring/"progress check up" since getting back on the horse is this Friday. I'm a little excited, but that is overshadowed by nervousness and fear that it's going to be bad news... :-s
Can you post your list of feel good songs? Or did you already and I missed it somewhere?
ReplyDeleteYou are making healthy choices and doing good things for your body. THAT is the most important thing! Great job!
ReplyDeleteThe best part about having fun while doing exercise is that you're having so much fun that it doesn't seem like "work" or "workout." That's actually a great thing! It means you'll be doing it more often and on a long-term basis. I love walking, too. As for forgiveness, I say you can forgive but not forget. And forgive in your heart and release it. That doesn't mean letting them back in your life or your heart. Just my opinion. Keep it up, chibi!
ReplyDeleteYou are awesome, three workouts is fantastic. And yes, change the way you are thinking! Be thankful that you are enjoying your exercise. Makes it so much easier to do. I was dragging my butt and finally got into boot camp tonight and all my regular ladies were there and I had fun. True, there was a portion of misery but usually followed by laughter. And hey, I wasn't the one who bounced off my exercise ball with my face so HUGE success!
ReplyDeleteHey three workouts in a week is three more than I've done, so consider yourself applauded. *applauds wildly* Just by posting this, you've proven that you're changing the way you think - you're doing great things for YOU. Keep it up!
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