My post is late because I'm on holidays this week and just enjoying being lazy and doing nothing much. I don't have a lot to report... Last week was good - decent workouts and ate well. We went for a gorgeous walk in the sun on Saturday at Westminster Abbey and Heritage Park.
I had something of a... breakthrough on Tuesday. I went shopping with my birthday money; while trying on clothes, I was FINALLY able to look at things objectively and realize that it was the clothes that weren't the right "fit," not me - the cut wasn't compatible or I needed a bigger size: whatever, no big deal. For the first time in I don't even know how long, I wasn't standing there watching my face flush with shame as I blamed myself and hated my body. This is my body right now: I need to love it for what it is because it's the only body I have. Obviously. *snort*
(Just to give you an idea of how screwed up the fashion industry's sizing is, I bought a large and 1X shirt. From the SAME STORE in the SAME BRAND. (And for the record, no, I don't squeeze my ass into stuff so it fits like a sausage casing just out of an attempt at vanity sizing. Obviously.))
(Just to give you an idea of how screwed up the fashion industry's sizing is, I bought a large and 1X shirt. From the SAME STORE in the SAME BRAND. (And for the record, no, I don't squeeze my ass into stuff so it fits like a sausage casing just out of an attempt at vanity sizing. Obviously.))
I'm not saying I won't have slip-ups; I've hated my body for 20 years and that's a long-ingrained (bad) habit to get over. However - as dippy-hippie as it sounds - I feel like I turned a corner. And that feels pretty damned good.

I definitely have to remember this. I'm going to be going shopping in a couple of weeks to buy a couple new tops and maybe another pair of jeans so that I have nice clothes that fit for my upcoming family visit/vacation. I love watching my weight go down but it seems nothing fits well while I'm doing it because I don't want to buy new clothes I'm hopefully not going to where for long! Good for you!!!
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