Self-Discovery, Word By Word is the amazing series started by Dr. Ashley Solomon at Nourishing the Soul, encouraging bloggers to write about what the month's theme word means to them - thoughts, feelings, experiences, and so on. June is being hosted by Dr. Dana Udall-Weiner at The Body and The Brood: the word she has chosen is bravery.
Bravery is tricky for me. A number of people have referred to me as "brave," but it's not a word I would choose to describe myself - I don't see anything I do as being particularly courageous. To me, bravery is a word used to describe police officers, fire fighters paramedics, soldiers - people who make the choice to do dangerous work in order to help others. However, as Chebbar likes to point out, if I hear the same thing from more than one person, am I really going to assume that all of them - their opinions - are wrong?
I am brave when I realize that I am tired of hanging onto anger, bitterness, and negativity and want to let go of it all.
I am brave when I accept and own my grief, because it is mine and I'm entitled to feel my feelings.
I am brave when I choose to do what is best for me instead of doing what I think everyone else wants from me.
I am brave when I share things I struggle with, because I let others know that they're not alone.
I am brave when I admit that I don't particularly like the way I treat myself, that I want to change, and that I'm willing to start.
I am brave when I speak my mind, even though my opinion may not be well-received.
I am brave when I spill my guts about how I feel about myself and allow myself to be vulnerable.
I am brave when I stand up for what or who I believe in.
I am brave every time I take a chance.
I am brave every time I let someone in.
I guess I'm braver than I thought (although it still feels... weird to refer to myself that way, like I'm tooting my own horn).